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so im totally stoked about bonnaroo. awesome music, great weeds and many other perks. this year we are hoteling it up. last year was way to much slop eww.
ziggy has finally got back to being himself, hes running around acting all crazy. aww hes soo cute i can't believe it. hes getting so big now.
thank god there is only one more day of work or i would lose it. seriously, people so don't work hard enough. i just want to curse everyone out, but then i would prolly get fired. and that would be bad. so i will have to keep my mouth shut and roll with the punches. OHHHH !! i can't for bonnaroo. my only vacation of the year so i better make it awesome right.

ahh the joys of winter. last night and this morning we got 6 to 8 inches of snow. Oh boy was that fun to drive in a 630 am. it was really scarey i was going 35 on the expressway the whole way to Ann Arbor. Its all ok now at least i made it.

tomrrows christmas eve and you know what that means it party time with the family and i get to see Tay. im pumped. it seemed as this christmas flew by i can't believe it.

well it sucks have a real person job. this 8 to 5 isn't cutting it. i am currently working for Borders Group Inc, the Borders Headquarters in Ann Arbor. its fun, but there are many more responsiblities that i need to adjust to. ive only been there for a week so im still getting us to it. unfortunately, there arn't many young people in my department and the one that is, just so happens to be named lindsey too. Shes a huge gaint shes got to be at least 6'2 or more. i guess im the mini now. right now, i am getting together some fixtures, signes and graphics to be placed in our new stores, remoels and reloacted Borders. I am then changing all of the Waldens into Border Express and then designing how the Seattles best Coffee shops are going to look. this year is going to be a busy one for me. in two weeks im going to be designing and ordering 4 Seattles best coffee per week. overall, over 400 stores this year. I have a big job ahead of me.


In july i am hopeing to move up there. Bryan and i have found our place. its a decent apt. real pricey though, 845$ a month. YIKES! well, ally is comming over to hang out. i have to wrap this up. merry christmas to all and to all a good night.

I am swearing off evil men. they are faggots who only think about themselves, and assume they are always right. they have no emotion to us, nor really care. they are simple minded fucks who strive to be number one even if it hurts others. they lack commuinication skills with the other half of the population. they always say we are trying to fix them, its the other way around, we talk about our day and they tell us how to change...their dumbasses!!!

Why can't i find a guy who acts the way i want him to? I don't ever think that will happen because their all fucking morons. God i hate men, what is the real purpose of them being around.... JOBS ha yea right ill work myself i don't need a man for that shit.... sex haha it's better if you do it yourself, go vibrator....they don't cook, they don't pick up after themselves.... ok maybe to make a baby, shit in the next few years we won't need men for that, it willbe lab created... so pretty much men are useless and should be banished from earth... FUCK ALL THE MEN THOSE BASTARDS!

AHH DAMN the music festival in which i waited long for was a disaster. Bonnaroo 2004 was a sweat fest, i never knew i could sweat in so many ways. on top of the swaet was the mudd, two of my most hated things.... 6 inches of mudd everywhere. to get anywhere you had to take off your shoes or the mudd would suck them in and you would never see them again. total bummer.

it wasn't all bad, we saw some cool bands, Dave Matthews ( which sorta sucked) Steve Winwood who rocked, parts of Ani difranco till the puking happened, and many bands we didnt even know who were playing. luckly we could hear the bands from the campsite, like Umpheys McGee, String cheese, Robert Randolf and several others.

during the day it was crazy, so hot we would all pass out under the canopy. why pass out? why not nothing else to do, unless you wanna get a heat stroke. ALL in ALL we had a good time. It was my 22nd birthday on sunday and since it rained so much and mudd was everywhere, and our tent was flooded, the canopy was in half from the harsh winds, we decided to leave early. Bad idea !!! we ended up going to a hotel getting clean and going to diner... while jason and ally got stuck in the mudd trying to get out of the camp and Aaron was left to fend for himself. ok ok we found him a ride home with his friends whom insisted they had room for him, yea he had to ride home on the floor of there mini van ontop of all their stuff. Thats rough. Aaron is pissed ohh well he said he wanted to stay so he got what he wanted. now he is talking about fighting bryan. please ! haha guys are so dumb i swear, they think fighting will resolve things or make it better, PROLLY NOT DUMBASSES! grow up and stop being pissed this was his choice even tho we did kinda leave him without teling him. We were misrible. you have no idea!

There was so much planning in this trip and everything went to the dogs in the end! The memorable times of this trip: clipping a car in the parking lot, almost getting into a wreck on the highway in out caravan, waiting in line for 2 1/2 hours to get in, walking a mile and a half to get to the shows, shrooming while watching ANI then puking a shit load, watching DAVE, crowd of people farther then your eye could see, Allys all messed up, thunderstorm while watching steve winwood, walking in 6 inches of mudd with no shoes on while it smells like shit, mentally feels like your walking in shit ewww, overflowing toliets, sleeping in the car, canopy in half, drag chairs to centeroo to find out we can't bring them in fuckers, set in the mudd watching movies in the tv tent, decide to pack up and leave, tell jason and ally but they don't come then get mad when we leave, whatever, leave aaron, hotel room shower, b-day dinner, home, rolling ....ahh the joy of a road trip. Yikes! so many memories wheather good or bad i still had a good time and a learning experience. Next time i go on a road trip its going to be on the beach and just bryan and i and a nice hotel room. haha rock on dude!

the garage sale is this weekend, GREAT! worked one day and i have to go back in a bit. BOY is it boring. sitting with the grandparents doing nothing.

tay finally moved home YES! now i don't have to hear the rath and the naging all by my lonesome. and at least i have someome to talk to. i duno if tay will be around for much, hes got training camps in vancover and toronto and so on. i hope hes not gone for to long.

well the job searching is a long process and its really frusrating. i've sent in my resume to so many places and no word back yet. All the places i have sent in my resume have been in ANN ARBOR. after a few months of computting from my parents house to A2 i will prolly get an apartment up there. ann arbor is sweet there is so much to do there and its very liberal. apartments are expensive mom and i have looked and there like 700 dollars.. oh well thats the price you pay to get out of this shit hole.

granted im gonning to miss my friends but damn its about time i leave. i need something new. im one of those people who gets bored quickly and needs change all the time. Im a gemini. and i need to get away from my parents. im going to miss my grandma the most out of everyone.

last night was a boop, nothing to fun played some pong and smoked out. some chicks came over and they were pretty cool for chicks. i was surprised! everyone is getting on my fucking nerve. jasons telling bryan that its girl time. ASK ME? aaron thinks he's king about this bonnaroo camping trip, telling us what we can bring and what we can't. jason makes fun of me for everything especially living home. andys just been a dick. bryan has this thing called supiority, and thinks it over everyone especially me, and is soo loud its annoying. and soo immature ( bryan and jason) GROW UP your almost out of college. kirks alright and so is ally. Everyone else can suck a dick. play your fucking video games and talk about your damn FANTASY team shit and well see where that takes you in life and with girlfriends.. prolly nowhere!

all i hear is bitching in this house, all the time. It driving me nuts. i should of never moved home. moms bitching about jobs and how i need one. and some how she thinks that the wonderful UT should be helping me out and that i should of done a co-opt. HA yea right.if they can't tell me when to turn in my graduation application then they certainly can't tell me where to get a job. College sucks. One minute mom tells me to go work at schoolbelles another minute she tells me not to. OH GEEZ. make up your mind.

From now on im going to do what i want and when i wanna do it. Im sick of people making me do certain things and the way they want them done. Im gonna stay were i please and come home late and not look pretty all the time. Make up my own mind and plan out my OWN LIFE. if i don't want to shower for two days im gonna do it. if i don't want to dress nice i won't. And if i don't want to empty the dishwasher when it says its clean hell no im not doing it. if i wanna be a fucking hippy who smokes pot you can't stop me. FOR all the POSERs in the world get a life and be yourself and fuck you all.

homes boring im watching cops and my rents keep asking me to watch a movie with them. aww geez. so my parents want me to weight out my opitions for a job. so im a college graduate thats prolly going to work at schoolbelles. wonderful i get to work with the physcho crazy woman. TINA! ahh well things will work out for the best i just need some time.

jason ally aaron bryan and I are going to bonnaroo in a few weeks and boy we can't wait. we already have a stock pile of camping gear in gibbons basement. Its going to be PHAT. we have to go later this week and peep out mini vans so we can all ride to tennesee together. I can't wait for the music and its going to be on my b-day. How could this camping trip go wrong?

do you ever want to change your past? do things differently? most of us would especially when it comes to a old fling. well at least my bf seems too. i just feel that im not what he wants if he wants to go back then. times have changed and shit happens. If i could go back in time and change i would but not for a fucking fling more less my health.i don't feel right for him if hes wanting the past. i don't feel confident in this relationship. God there is so much to think about. alright time to go watch a movie with mom and dad. PEACE

today carrie is commin to move her stuff out, its good i will never have to see her again, but its a little sad at the same time. shes a steve but we've had a lot of good times thought out the year. my emotions are mixed. move out time is quickly appoaching and i have so much stuff that im not to sure what to do with it all. especailly since im moving back home. YIKES! Ally is commin over right now, were going to hang out before she goes to work at two. The boys are having a cookout for the NFL draft party and guess whos not invited. Me! wonderful. im starting to learn who are my friends and who aren't. thank god im moving home soon so i don't have to talk to them anymore. im getting sick of this shit. i wouldn't mind the boys having a cook out but its the fact that my own boyfriend doesn't even want me there and jason said i could come. fuck him, hes doesn't have time for me ever so the game is going to be played back, how he is playing it. i don't have time for him nor do i care what he thinks or want. Im going to have to let go soon,i can't take it anymore. He thinks everything is fine, but i on the other hand have told him my problems and he hasn't done anything to improve the realtionship more less cares. if he doesn't care neither do i. I'll just go find someone who treats me better and really wants to care. i do love him, well mind tells me that, but lately its been changing. and he does nothing to make me feel better, or more happy. its like he doesn't care. ally just got here so i have to go. peace love pot

ok ok maybe i was stresin a little bit to much last night, i was all alone i had no one to talk to but this damn internet. my bad. so my relationship isn't that bad and my life isn't horrible altho sometimes it feels that way. i guess sometimes we just have to suck it up and bear it, i mean what else are we going to do, cry a river then jump in it. come on now! i can officially say BCP fuck me up, ok so i forgot to take 3 and took them all at the same time, whoa was that a trip. talk about enough hormones and emotion to fill 10 women. i hope it doesn't screw with my insides and kick me off balance, that would suck. I am about to get off these damn things and swear off sex. Its a pain in my ass, why can't men take the little pill, its there fault anyways. Ahh screw sex the damn pill and imature men, if lifes just giving me this shit now i better have a fucking feild day when i get older. well its off to cleaning the pit of hell ( my apartment) no one else is going to do it so it better be me. ( no one lives with me ) peace love and pot :)

Sometimes i feel he doesn't care. sometimes i feel that he thinks he is better then me. Sometimes i feel that he jokes but it hurts inside. He makes me feel like shit andit hurts deep down in my heart. His compassion shows me no mercy and sometimes i wonder why im still around. cus i love him!
Im so ready to get my life on track and get the hell out of here. I'm sick of young hot chicks being sluts, dudes who stare every waking move i make and people being "gangsta". this toledo place sucks. In about 2 weeks i'll graduate college,i will be having my own office in ann arbor michigan i can't wait. Im so drawn tho. will love stand the test of time or the departure of miles. we will only know. its like i wanna plan stuff with us together, but i have to do whats meant for me, cus its my life. In the end the decision might tear us apart and thats why i get so scared. Bryans all i know. If we last though the tough times commin he better be a little more romantic and not always looking up his fantasy shit or playing video games. its going to be a totally different ball game, were adults, you have to think about it as what would we do with out each other. When were together its our time and thats it! Im a girl and like every girl i need to be pampered, loved, adored and to be made happy. Lately its been none of that, and im kinda bummed. I need a little more in life then watching tv, playing video games and having your eyes attached to the monitor.
I'm so ready to have babys i love them so much. its prolly not the smartest thing to do right now but i want something i can love and it will love me back the same. its called unconditional love. the love you get from your mom and dad. The love i need. don't get me wrong bryan is a great guy and i love him dearly but its not unconditional love, and i need that, i need more then what i have.
The biggest change in my life is hitting me hard. and im not to sure what to do. I have to move home with my parents, which is going to be a stuggle. im not going to see bryan like ever. Im having a real world job in Ann Arbor. possibly moving up to ann arbor for good before going to arizona. haivng to leave my baby kitty with bryan cus my dads bitchin'. My whole switch up on my meds so i don't get all fucked up and of course the health insurance. Trying to plan out my future with bryan. Its not an easy task. and i get a early crefew when i move home. GREAT!! Ahh the joys of getting old. i wish we could just skip to 2008 that would be pretty cool.
I'm about to head to bed i have nothing else to do. Bryan told me he didn't want to hang out tonight. hes with his butt buddy aaron prolly getting high and playing a FANTASY gay ass halo. or at the bar, thanks for asking me ! i swear he talks to aaron more then he talks to me.gay bull shit. it sucks cus if he doesn't wanna hang out its hard for me to do anything cus all my friends are his friends and he lives with most of them. on top of ally and jason never leaving each others side. so i do nothing but sit here and do nothing YAY!.... i mean you dumb boy you could just hang out with me till i have to move home in which i will never see you. think a little bit besides your madden and whats going on in the draft. in fact ill be sitting home alone on draft day ohh geezzz i can hardly wait.
ENOUGH with this b/f upsetting talk, im about to go have happy dreams.Goodnight everyone! peace love and pot :)

another christmas has flown by and another 364 days to go till next christmas. woooohooo! today tay went back to saginaw :( how sad. I sat with grandma for 4 hours waiting for my car to come back from the shop, putting a starter in. Im not getting use to the thing. it will take time. Mel came over to the apt smoked some nugs and had fun. how can a person get up and leave in a jeep and thats it? whoa talk about crazy. and to FL !! played with ziggy today. hes a pig, i gave him two bowls of food to last little over 24 hours and he ate all of both of them. onk onk!! now im back at the rents crib sitting here and dad is talking my ear off about the same starter shit hes been telling me all day. OK dad i know you've told me 4 times now that if i start it in the garage and forget i turned it on the whole family can die. come on now i don't think im that blonde. well enough with this mumbo gumbo im going to pack my things and get ready to go home tomorrow HOLLA

talk about bored. Gosh this place is sooo boring and i thought the apt was. MAN. bryan im using this thing more here then at home. at least its something to do. just got done partying it up at the raszka's ...blow out! everything was cool lots of wine and it was like thanksgiving all over again, tons of food. bout 30 peeps. I was getting a lil pissy ...my cousins girl was getting lippy with me and rolling her eyes. god whats new with bitches and there rolling of their eyes at me. I wanted to hit her like i want to kill krista. Is it bad that the girl is 16 opppss. i think bry is rubbing off on me i want to beat peeps ass over nothing. ahh well !! I wish he would call me i keep calling him and i get his voice mail. I hope he is not avoiding me cus i miss him sooo much. It sucks its only been 3 days how horrible is that? i just want him to hug me, kiss me, hold me, saying he misses me and loves me. OH gosh im sick... ineed to go and relax before i get upset about this whole bryan thing. i mean damn its christmas and all, he hasn't called me since we went home. it makes me upset i don't know what to think about the whole weird situation only as to me having way more feelings then he does. ahhh well .....MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT!!!! :)

christmas has finally come.... yay! its christmas eve and theres actually snow on the ground something i thought i would have never seen this year. its been to warm for that. im waiting on my brother and dad to hurry up so we can go pick up grandma and go to this eve party. AND us woman are the slow ones .... we're already dressed. dad bought us a ping pong table that thing is sweet and guess who beat TAY ... oh yea i kick assss hehe. altho, dad is a tough one to beat, i only beat him once out of four games ouch. my poor little ziggy baby ripped open his scabs and now its an open wound and of course its christmas eve and nothing is open, my luck. today is pretty good besides the fact that since i have been home taylor has woken me up at 8 if not earlier every single morning, im happy about that one. Im missing my baby this season awww and it seems he doesn't feel the same as i do, i love him all the same. boys will be boys, and the feelings will remain in. (ilove you=3) BRY: 3 time to head to the party and get drunk oh yea im loving the wine, hehe! HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!

is it bad to cry? or hold your feelings in to long. an explosion of anger, despire, stress and hardship flow out with tears. feelings of "why am i here" appear and the thought of a solution is but years ahead. Why is there pain, why is there hurt, why does life just suck. ARHHHHH!! They say God only gives you things you can handle. Why is my load so heavy. some days i feel like packing up and leaving getting out of here and being happy the only thing stoping me is bryan. I love him so much that leaving him might do the worst. my thoughts circle in a process of a solution, what to do. Theres nothing, I have to sit back and wait, waiting sucks ... which i know my future, the future i don't want. i want to die, but leaving my family and the people that love me, would be so painful. what is a girl to do. I don't know what i want in life, only to get married and have children if i can. I don't know about my career, what i want to do, thats stressful enough without me being sick and my parents always at my neck about something. the list goes on and on. LEAVE ME ALONE!!!! life just needs to be a happy bliss like it use to.... fucking adam and eve! I think what i need is some rolls weed and beer and ill be fine, only for a day but at least ill be happy.

hell yea who the hell is the national champs.... i don't give a flying fuck... cus mighcan just wooppped your asss. HAHAHA fuckers. 35 to 21 another win over buckeyes. YES! now if i could get trashed it would be even sweet. Where going to the rose bowl... wooohoooo! peace

I remembered for once..... YES! How can you remember this damn thing when your more worried about yourself, money, school, other events and a special kitty. SORRRYYYY DEVIANT. Ill try to write in this thing. Lately, I've been trying to figure if im going to bryans thanksgiving dinner or what .... arghh! But, more importantly he got me a kitty.... awwww i love both of them so much ....bry and ziggy. Hes a big orange hog, everyone loves him. it makes me soo happy just to talk about him. my christmas shopping is done! wooohooo! yay! yes im early, but ill freak out if it gets to december and i have nothing, the stress is off the chest. Im bout to go to work BOOOOOO! God do i hate it. deal with fucking old bitches and white trash loser who live in trailers... ewww! I got an offer to work with a company realating to my major. I think i may do it, but i have to look into it more. And yes bryan i told you, you just must of not heard me, only saying yup or uhh huh. well I think it is my time to depart to the gay asss pharm. have a good one. ONE LOVE
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took grandpa to the doctors in ann arbor today. Not to bad, we were only there for four hours. came back and went to the condo, mom made some cookies...yummy! now im here waiting for bryan to get out of class so we can chill. lets drink one to another boring day. today sucked and yet nothing to write about... i am pumped to go home with b bop this weekend. the wedding might be a bit scary but his mommy will make it worth it. we're peeping out his dad too. lets hope that goes good. hes making lamb, i duno how to feel about that one. bryan lets not get tooo trashed at this wedding, i don't want to fight! bryan called and were going to go grab a bit to eat. p

he did it, he chop it all off... AWESOME. yup, bryan cut the beautiful mane haha. i like it anyway you have it. The shag lost all the mullet potenial :( anyways today is boring and sad outside, the only thing ive heard all day is this dudes loud music, i mean seriously... at that it's not even good music. total bummer! going to class in a bit oh yeaaaa, that will be fun. Ally is having a Tupperware party tonight at 7. what young kid has a tupperware party? if you ask me i think its a little weird, but there will be free food, so ill just keep my mouth shut. we're breaking in the smokin' tent later, muffs got a new tent she set it up in her room. ha! its the "super baked, i'm ripped stoonnner tent" YES! i have nothing else to say in this bitch so im outie... one love ~L

well that test went alright, considering i had to haul ass to finish it... a 50 minute class for an essay and 80 questions... ouch! oh well one test down, one more to go, wish me luck... i can't wait till this day is over. tomorrow im going shopping with mom and have one class YES! Its kinda boring here, flo's asleep, and on one is online :( its me and the hungry kitty neo. i better start hitting the books for my 4 o'clock exam. one love ~L